Theoceanfloor's Blog

Fifty One.

theoceanfloor — Wed, 17 Mar 2010 13:57:20 +0000

Being caught, or placed in the middle doesn’t feel good what so ever.

Fifty.

theoceanfloor — Mon, 15 Mar 2010 02:25:12 +0000

Feeling really down and shit im sitting at home without work. I feel so hopeless.

Fifty Nine.

theoceanfloor — Sat, 13 Mar 2010 00:27:35 +0000

Hopelessly Hopeless.

Fifty Eight.

theoceanfloor — Fri, 12 Mar 2010 13:24:19 +0000

So i really feel like i mean shit all to people. I quit my job today due to being bullied and harassed. Feeling like the under dog is the worst feeling when put put everything into something and nothing is ever good enough. Being called ‘dirty’ and ‘a bad worker’ really makes you feel like fucking shit, especially when its the person you tried to respect even though you kept getting shit for every move you made.
I walked away just disgusted from work. I walked away feeling as if i was not good enough for anything. I walked away feeling the ugliest i have in my life.

Yes i have this job interview with MAC which i am so exited about, but right now it doesn’t change how low i feel. Full just feeling as if i have been kicked in the teeth. Im going to miss the girls i worked with especially Tahnee of course.

A picture taken yesterday at work with Her. 11/03/10 L-R: Me&Tahnee

Fifty Seven.

theoceanfloor — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 11:52:27 +0000

Most words that you talk to people mean nothing. Blank useless words we just talk to others who really dont mean any significants in our lives at all. Some people really do mean what they say deep down, but now days most people are trash talkers. I dont really care at all because I cant say i really have anyone really special in my life anymore execpt for what maybe five people all up.
Lonesome life working non stop, but five trustworthy and decent people. I think i can cope.

Fifty Six.

theoceanfloor — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 10:36:11 +0000

So i haven’t written on this blog for a really long time. I have become more adapted with tumblr and the quick photo scheme of it all. So much has happened since my last post and life is a little bit hectic at the moment but whos isnt? Friendships have blossomed and others failed miserably. As much as you try and grip things in the palm of your hand and try your hardest not to make them fall through, you will always have those moments where you cant hold onto everything.
Life is not fair no way, but you have to learn to deal with what life throws at your. Its life, life doesn’t mean to hurt you that’s just the way it is. Try not to take it personally but just learn to bare with it. Its a bitch at times. No its a fucking damn disgrace at times but thats life. Life doesn’t actually care for you, you have to care for it.

Fifty Five.

theoceanfloor — Mon, 18 Jan 2010 11:07:27 +0000

So a post a put up today had been deleted. Im not sure how what so ever but its gone. Not happy. I have also decided to stop going out as i see no enjoyment in it anymore and to also stop drinking. Im becoming to hate the smell, taste, effect, simply everything to do with it. There just my views on it now and im sure it will change, but for the time being im chosing not to touch any alcohol and give my body a clean start.

Fifty Four.

theoceanfloor — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 12:43:56 +0000

My wordpress now will just be for writing exactly how i feel, current events happening with me and just about my daily, non eventful, boring life. Ive gone onto tumblr just for posting photos and quotes, yet that isnt too exiting either.
If you want to suss it http://prowlingwolves.tumblr.com/, also http://www.formspring.me/theoceanfloor

Fifty Three.

theoceanfloor — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 02:02:23 +0000

I really do miss a handfull of people. I miss seeing them most weekends and always keeping in touch. I am probably dead to them and the only time they will recognise me is a status on facebook or a msg I will send them without a reply. I try so hard to make sure i try my best to keep in contact with people. Obviously im failing. Though if i stop what im already doing they will accuse me of not putting in any effort. I never seem to be able to do the right thing.

Fifty Two.

theoceanfloor — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 08:41:12 +0000

I have to say, I never really took much care of people who said ‘wow its good to be home after a long day at work’. I can finally relate and appreciate coming home to a nice house and family and relax. My new job with Benefit makeup is so much fun but the hours are long and im on my feet all day!
I have the best fun, getting to be with makeup all day, wax people, be in a good atmosphere and love my job most importantly. I have to say my back is actually killing me and my legs feel as if their about to snap off but thats all to complain about really !

I have tomorrow and Monday off which im so happy about finally get some sleep ins !